I've been back for real for about a week and it's been very hard to adjust to life back home again. To be a bit gushy, I miss my boyfriend who's staying in Japan longer to earn more money before we move to New York together. I keep thinking that I'll see him soon, that I'll jump on a train and end up at his station where he'll meet me past the ticket barriers and take me out for dinner. I have to wait until December until I see him again, but I have to thank the glory that is the internet since I am able to Skype with him daily.
During my remaining time in Japan my weight was around 164 lbs and just before I went to Spain I had gone up to 166 lbs. Since returning from Spain I've gained another pound putting my weight at 167 lbs. So...any progress I did make in Japan has been erased with my bad eating habits. For I do declare that I am a terminal grazer. I find myself constantly wanting to eat, rather than needing to eat. I need to gain the mental strength to be able to identify when I am hungry and when I am craving food. I easily give in to my cravings and being at home with a fully stocked kitchen this could cause a lot of problems for me. I am slowly creeping my way back into the 170's, somewhere I really don't want to be, it's bad enough I'm back in the 160's.
So here I am to admit that I have been slacking and that I need to do something because not only am I desperate to reach my goal weight but...
...I'm getting married.
It's not going to be a big affair because we can't afford it, but I want to be at a healthy weight by the time I say "I do". I probably won't be at my goal weight by then, but I really want to be healthy, which is anything below 150 lbs. Time to start sorting myself out and realising that weight loss is a lifestyle change not just something I can switch on and off and still expect to see results. So for now here are my goals:
- Stay within my 1400 calories a day range.
- Exercise 4 times a week for 4 weeks.
- Start saying no to junk food and opting for healthier options.
That's it! It's not impossible, I can do this.